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Sick Lecturer

2011-04-06T04:22:00.000-07:00

“How many hours you spend on sleeping a day?” A lecturer of mine raised a question. Most of the students answer 8, some “kiasu” (scare lose attitude, commonly known as Singaporean behavior) answer 6, I definitely outstanding one, my answer is 10 on weekday, 12 on weekend. “8 hours sleeping time? This is very daring, an UH student sleeps for 8hrs is sick, whereas our fellow 10 on weekday and 12 on weekend is a sin…” (I am innocent, don’t fire on me plz). Normal people without any serious disease will live up to 60 years he added. If your sleeping hour is 8, you spend 8/24 X 60yrs = 20 yrs on sleeping. However, if you reduce to 6 hours, it takes you ¼ X 60 = 15yrs. You save 5yrs, you can complete a degree with a master with 5yrs time while others are sleeping out there.

So how many hours does he sleep? 4 hours! In fact our bio clock doesn’t allow us to adjust our sleeping time straight off but we can slowly trim down from 8hrs to 7.5 and subsequent to 7 or 6, he shared his thought. Gosh, how your mind could be rested with only 4 hours sleep I doubt….

My lecturer who held the following title:
MBA (Strathclyde), MBA - Investment & Finance (Hull), MBR (UWA), BAcc (NTU), FCPA Singapore, FCPA (Aust.), FAIA (Acad), FAAFM, AMA (Aust.), CRA, CCO, MSIM

And currently he is pursuing 2 doctorate degrees in accounting and finance on part time basis. “What the heck you study so much?” I wonder. ..

Sorry sir, I gonna quit your class for sake of my life.

移动城堡

2011-03-22T03:20:00.000-07:00

搬搬搬家了。快要离开时才发现步行回家的15分钟路程已经成为一种习惯。附近的小学，贝壳油站，麦当劳，星巴克，7/11便利店和一路绿意盎然的花树草都不会再经过了。想起刚搬来时还埋怨这里离市区还蛮远的，住下来才开始喜欢上这里的优静。还有3天就要搬去死党的家了。希望一切都顺顺利利吧! 期待中。。。

雨天

2011-03-17T02:01:00.000-07:00

这两天雨都一直在下。以前觉得下雨是因为天空不开心就下起雨来了，自己的心情也跟着哀伤起来。一直到发现自己不会哭了，每当下起大雨都当成自己的不开心老天爷帮我的眼泪哭出来。雨下完感觉自己的不开心也被眼泪一拼洗走。

what are words - chris medina

2011-03-15T02:59:00.000-07:00

最近很喜欢的一首歌，给我以前到现在都喜欢的你。

Whenever you want me to be around, just a call and I will be around. Be it rain or shine…

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close

The Melting of Japan

2011-03-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

8.9 Earthquake struck Japan triggering a Tsunami Alert. Again it reminds how tiny are us in front of natural disaster. According to friends who living in Tokyo, the capital not as much as intensive compared with north east of Japan, however, it is suffering reverberation for past few days. “I don’t want to die” and cries you heard when earthquake hit Japan, he added. Apart from natural disaster, the victims are worrying for food crisis and infection of radioactive due to the several explosions with nuclear plants. No one can sleep well, no one can eat well, especially for those just lost their love one.

Japan government is working hard to minimise the impact after tragedy. Rescue team all around the world landed at Japan to participate the rescuing. Nuclear incident response team are giving their best to ensure safety of others while compromising their own. No one, however, can save them if accidents happen upon them at the plants.

I share the sorrow and pains of the victims' families. Let's pray for all the best and we could overcome this disaster.

---live with no regrets, die without pain---

Happy Lunar New Year-2011(Rabbit)

2011-02-10T23:33:00.000-08:00

庆祝了农历新年又要投入工作了。很高兴能再见到以前小时候的好朋友跟旧同学，小时的好朋友都成长了，且多了一份成熟感。很难想象以前大家都像野孩子的往大街跑，向小巷窜，还爬到别家的屋顶去捡球。每天都有精彩的活动，逢周四诳夜市(pasar malam)更是每周的指定动作。现在想起都觉得以前的日子都没有白活，哈哈。

年初三应该是我最忙的一天吧。从中午的聚餐到晚上的旧同学“团圆饭”再出现在机场(airport)然后再跑到balliz跟旧同学“吹水”，拖着疲陋的残躯回到家已经快凌晨四点了。再一次感谢好友们的精心策划让我能够施展我的“赶场”能耐。谢谢大家。

在此祝大家在新的一年，念书的学业猛进；打工的步步高升；老板们生意兴隆；单身的觅得如意良伴；情侣们有情眷属还有大家都身体健康。报告完毕。

7Es

2011-01-04T01:17:00.000-08:00

What a great way to start of 2011. 2010 Malaysia is ended by crowning champion of Suzuki Cup Asean Football. This is the greatest night in Malaysian football and in order to mark the victory, our prime minister, najib has declared Friday, 31st December 2010 as a public holiday. Once again I extend my congratulation to our national football team which propels Malaysian football to greater heights.

Look back to 2010 I have gone through, it neither as uneven as I thought, nor as smooth as I imagined. My 2010 is blended with sweet and bitter but generally, it remains a satisfactory year. I always believe in a saying “what doesn’t kill you, it makes you stronger”. We will achieve our target if we maintain. Sounds stubborn, but this thinking had given me courage to carry on when depression.

Look forward to 2011 I have set 7 goals to be achieved in this year.

1. Enroll with MBA;
2. Earn a new ability;
3. Establish own career;
4. Empower with better knowledge;
5. Enjoy a trip;
6. Emerge with new image;
7. Exalted.

I call them 7Es. ^^

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2011!!!

2010-12-24T00:53:00.000-08:00

Hi all, I’d like to take this opportunity to greet you Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. If u drop by n happen to see this in my blog, no matter who are u, whether we know each other, or u are a pedestrian just walk by, I wish you have a contented Christmas and a better year ahead. Christmas, it is a meaningful day for Christian. As for non-Christian, it is a holiday. Therefore regardless you are Christian or non-Christian, Christmas Eve & Christmas remain a night & day festive celebration. So what are u waiting for? Let’s hit the dancefloor together…

在看部落格的你，心里在想着谁呢？祝你们都幸福。=)

如果有一天你累了，就停下来看看这篇文章

2010-08-23T04:23:00.000-07:00

　1、两个人在一起久了，就象左手和右手，即使不再相爱也会选择相守，因为放弃这么多年的时光需要很大的勇气。也许生命中会出现你爱的人，但那终归是过客，你还是会牵着你的左手或者右手一直走下去，幸福真的和爱情无关。
　　“执子之手，与子谐老”。当初是誓言，后来是责任，再后来是习惯。

　　2、有的人你看了一辈子却忽视了一辈子，有的人你只看了一眼却影响了你的一生，有的人热情的为你而快乐却被你冷落，有的人让你拥有短暂的快乐却得到你思绪的连锁，有的人一相情愿了N年却被你拒绝了N年，有的人一个无心的表情却成了永恒的思念，这就是人生。
　　之所以有不同类型的“有的人”，是因为他（她）进入你视线的时间和环境不同。只有在适当的时间和适当的环境下进入你视线的人才能进入你的内心。

　　3、悲哀是真的，泪是假的，没有什么可执着；一百年前，你不认识我，我不认识你；背影是真的，人是假的，本没有因果；一百年后，没有你，也没有我。
　　悲哀和眼泪都是真的，区别只是内在和外在，无形和有形。

　　4、不要因为寂寞爱错人，更不要因为爱错人而寂寞一生，尝试信任才能得到幸福。缘分是本书，翻的不经意会错过，读的太认真会泪流。
　　缘分是幂幂中的安排，不可预知，也不可刻意追求。封面漂亮的书容易吸引人的眼球，但值得品味和珍藏的不多；用心血去写书的人往往没有时间和金钱去做装潢；许多书从形式到内容都枯燥无味，但平淡无奇确实也是人生的一种。

　　5、女人会记得让她笑的男人，男人会记得让他哭的女人，可是女人总是留在让她哭的男人身边，男人却留在让他笑的女人身边。
　　哭或者笑都是真情的流露。但对于大多数人来说，笑比哭好。

　　6、忘记一个人为什么要一辈子，因为，你根本没有试着去忘记，而是一直在怀念，在期待，在做梦！
　　忘不掉的，不能忘的，就让它在心里占据一个位置，而不是全部。　　

7、能够哭就好，哭是开始痊愈的象征。
　　不要哭太久，伤口结痂后被淋湿会再度感染。

　　8、在爱的世界里，没有谁对不起谁，只有谁不懂得珍惜谁。
　　应该珍惜的不仅是对方，还有自己的感情。对不珍惜你的人，不需要由他（她）说对不起，你要主动说“对不起”（潜台词：拜拜！）

　　9、无论怎样，一个人借故堕落总是不值得原谅的，越是没人爱，就越是要爱自己。
　　马克思他老人家说错了，应该说：无产者只有先解放自己，才能解放全人类。

　　10、能够说出的委屈便不算委屈，能够抢走的爱人便不算爱人。
　　不说出委屈就只能委屈自己，不放走不爱你的人就得不到爱你的人。

　　11、做个女人一定要经的起谎言，受的起敷衍，忍的住欺骗，忘的了承诺，放下一切后用微笑来伪装自己，宁可相信世界上有鬼，也别相信男人那张嘴。
　　如果这样，就永远是孤独的女人。

　　12、男人就好比洋葱，要想看到洋葱的心就需要一层一层去剥，但是你在剥的过程中会不断的流泪，剥到最后才发现洋葱是没有心的。
　　女人就好比玫瑰，不到最后一瓣展开，你也看不到她的心。

　　13、路的距离不代表心的距离，少有电话不代表少有牵挂，不常见面更不代表没有思念，忙碌的岁月也要珍惜这份关怀。
　　牛郎织女是美丽的神话。牛顿才是公认的科学家，他会告诉你引力和距离的关系。

　　14、我从不喜欢让别人看见我的眼泪，我宁可让别人觉得我快乐的没心没肺，也不愿让自己看起来委屈可怜。
　　我不想在你不开心的时候我开心，我不愿他（她）的不快乐换取我的快乐。

　　15、爱情就是一个将陌生人变成情侣，又将情侣变成陌生人的游戏。
　　恋爱不等于爱情，爱情决不是游戏。

　　16、在你放弃的时候还必须负担更多的东西，包括你对所放弃的不言后悔。
　　在不该放弃的时候放弃会后悔，在该放弃的时候不放弃也会后悔。做任何事都要付出成本的，最大的成本不是金钱和时间，而是机会。

　　17、有些事情，当我们年轻的时候无法懂得，当我们懂得的时候已不再年轻。世上有些东西可以补偿，有些东西永远无法补偿。
　　在成长中成熟，在成熟中衰老。顺应自然，笑待人生。不要早熟，也不要早衰。

　　18、这一生的最爱，在下一世连一点痕迹也不会留下。爱着的人啊，好好握着她的手，下辈子，你的身边就不再是她了。到了来生，你是否还记得自己曾爱过谁？
　　要真诚的花前月下，不要虔诚的古寺青灯。

　　19、两颗恒星永远无法相遇，所以我们是流星，我们相遇，我们碰撞。但，是流星，就注定要消逝。
　　愿爱情就象恒星，让眼泪只是流星。

　　20、给我一双手，让你依赖，给我一双眼，送你离开，就像蝴蝶飞不过沧海，没有谁忍心责怪，给我一刹那，对你宠爱，给我一辈子，送你离开。
　　牵爱的手不要退缩，看爱的眼不要迷糊，寻爱的心不要冷却，真爱的人不会离开。

　　21、如果有这样一个人，他在你心中完美无暇，没有一丝缺憾，你渴望又害怕接近他，这不是“爱情”，而是“崇拜”。
　　对你崇拜的人，你只能做他的奴隶，不可能做他的爱人。

　　22、誓言是写在水上的字，瞬间即逝；爱情是建在水上的屋子，摇晃不止；道歉是冬天的雪毯子，总是来迟。所以就像我和你是天使手中的鸽子，也不能一起飞一辈子。
　　水上写不出字也建不起屋，只有海市蜃楼。

　　23、爱一个人不必非得跟他在一起，喜爱普罗旺斯也不见得一定要赤着脚板徜徉在薰衣草花田里。
　　柏拉图只有一个，世人学不了，劝你也别学。

　　24、分手后不能再成为朋友，因为彼此伤害过。分手后也不能再成为敌人，因为彼此深爱过。所以我们成了最熟悉的陌生人。
　　广岛不会只有原子蛋和恋情。

　　25、别人害怕见到别离，我却害怕看见重逢，等眼泪变成了钻石，等浪漫变成了理智，等突然梦见发过的誓，以为说看见，爱就不会死，因为那年我们都是不顾一切的孩子。现在终于明白有些人再喜欢也不是你的，再留恋也得放弃。
　　有一种直率叫轻率，有一种执着叫偏执。

　　26、人的眼泪代表善良，鬼的眼泪代表重生，天使的眼泪代表夭折的爱情。
　　有的人是演员，有的人是鳄鱼。真正的泪水来自心底，眼睛只是一个出口。

　　27、许多事因为遥远而美丽，可以向往而去追求，许多事，因为美丽而遥远，只能无奈的一声叹息。
　　不是因为遥远而放弃，只是因为放弃而遥远。

　　28、黄昏下的琴键太寂寞，来来去去只剩很拙的双手，陪着固执的我，不停弹奏不停的犯错。想起他为你唱歌的温柔，我会笑着难过，能给你保护代替我的照顾，这是我最后的祝福，谢谢你的结束冷却后的残酷，谢谢你的知足告诉我别再付出，谢谢你的温度记忆留在最初，谢谢你曾让我幸福……
　　经典的心情，不经典的语言。

　　29、我爱你，可是我不敢说；我怕说了，我马上会死去；我不怕死，我怕我死了，再没有人象我一样爱你。
　　我不敢不爱你，因为我怕没有人会像我一样爱你；我不敢爱你，因为我怕你不会像我爱你一样地爱我。

　　30、记住该记住的，忘记该忘记的，改变能改变的，接受不能改变的。
　　真正留在心里的，从来不需要想起，因为永远也不会忘记。不要试图去改变别人，真正能改变的只有自己。

　　31、能冲刷一切的除了眼泪，就是时间，以时间来推移感情，时间越长，冲突越淡，仿佛不断稀释的茶。
　　时间是稀释剂，眼泪是溶蚀剂。

　　32、有些事情本身我们无法控制，只好控制自己。
　　要控制环境，先控制自己。

　　33、我不知道我现在做的哪些是对的，那些是错的，而当我终于老死的时候我才知道这些。所以我现在所能做的就是尽力做好每一件事，然后等待着老死。
　　认真对待每一个人，认真做好每一件事，直到老死!

成长

2010-08-23T04:07:00.000-07:00

成长是一种希望，承载着父辈的憧憬和理想；

成长是一种蜕变，经历了磨难才能破茧而出；

成长是一种快乐，饱览世间百态品尝人间滋味；

成长也是一种痛，磨炼精神人格锤炼品格意志；

成长更是一种责任，需要我们信守承诺做出奉献.

Be a real man

2010-08-23T02:55:00.000-07:00

Everything you grant doesn't mean eternal to me. You could lift me top, you could make me fall. I want to earn my respect with my own wisdom. I will carve my honor on stone with my own hands. I can reach as top as my capability. I determined to become a real man. And we will see.

生活随笔-3

2010-08-23T00:54:00.000-07:00

真正有气质的淑女，从不炫耀她所拥有的一切，她不告诉人她读过什么书，去过什么地方，有多少件衣服，买过什么珠宝，因为她没有自卑感。

(圆舞)

生活随笔-2

2010-08-23T00:27:00.001-07:00

想象力比知识更重要。因为知识是有限的，而想象力却能畅游整个世界。

(寻找爱因斯坦)

生活随笔-1

2010-08-23T00:24:00.000-07:00

一个能忍受寂寞的人，才是真正厉害的人。一个不被他人影响的人，却影响他人的人，才是真正厉害的人。

黑暗面

2010-08-20T02:51:00.000-07:00

不管你面对怎样的人生，你都有权力让自己过得快乐一点。如果你一帆风顺，终其一生，你也只不过看到一个太阳。面对不同的难题，就看自己以什么心态去面对了。其实黑暗也是一种风景，人生如果进入黑暗，并不是末路，或许你这时可以意外地发现到空中那闪耀的、更多的、更远的星星。

ps: shared from facebook.

E.V.O.L.U.T.I.O.N

2010-08-19T02:55:00.000-07:00

Finally I can squeeze out a little bit of time to update my blog. Although I know not much ppl viewing to this blog (this is also my intention not to publish my blog). Don’t feel like sharing with others. Buddies that know me well might think that I am talkable. In deed, I prefer listen more than speak. The reason I open this blog is because I wish I could learn how to share but the sad truth is I failed to do so (haha, kinda selfish right? I’m sad to say that, but I am). Good thing, it provides me a space to express my feeling without telling.

Now is 3:40 p.m. 19/08/10 (a great Thursday). Guess what I doing now? Listening to pop music with the company of a cup of fresh brewed coffee, as well as update my blog. Sounds relaxing huh? It’s not actually. If you can see my table, you’ll know how much my workload is. So mess until I can hardly find my pen. If you know me well, I have to relax my mind before I shall work. That’s my way.

Plenty of things happened recently (ever thought of I can’t carry on with my own capability), but when I look back I glad that I’ve gone through and find my way in dealing with it. No doubt, I am learned from it and it is benefited to me a lot. Not to have an evil heart to others, but you have to be smart and wise to avoid somebody from hurting you. You can lose anything but not your smile because smiling is the best mask in the world. Forgive your enemies but not to forget their name.

Its time to move on, I shall carry on to my work.

Birthday Cake

2010-08-19T01:09:00.000-07:00

Birthday cake from glacé. The best I ever had~ Yum Yummm

不．想

2010-07-29T01:49:00.000-07:00

該走的不走，該留的不留
黑白顛倒，是這世界走不出的怪圈
太多的事情假裝忘記．不說也沒人理會
生活里總有太多錯覺．
當時間證實了一切，太多的太多已錯過
那曾經的美點綴不了歷史，也換不起記憶．【來不及】
用心就不會後悔
能夠重新開始也是一種美麗
儘管疼痛，儘管不容易，都是必須的經歷

Move forward...

Dear Wayne

2010-06-14T22:50:00.000-07:00

‘What doesn’t kill you, it makes you stronger.’

One day, believe it or not, you are going to be strong enough to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders.

I want you to know that now, in my present, you are about to embark on a whole new chapter – one that evokes admiration for your bravery and strength of character from others and fills you with the excitement of potential. Who knows where it will take you…us! I wish us luck, even though, I know we’re going to be just fine.

My HP Probook 5310M

2010-05-26T20:24:00.000-07:00

It looks coool...my hp probook 5310m

Dreaming...

2010-05-04T01:06:00.000-07:00

I had a weird dream last night. Let me make a simple introduction, what is dream?
昨晚作了一个奇怪的梦。先让我作一个简单的介绍，什么是梦？

According the explanation from Wikipedia, dream is a succession of thoughts, images, sounds or emotions which the mind experiences during sleep. The content and purpose of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history. The scientific study of dreams is known as oneirology. During sleep our eyes are closed, so that the brain to some degree becomes isolated from the outside world. Moreover all signals from the senses (except olfaction) must pass through the thalamus before they reach the brain cortex, and during sleep thalamic activity is suppressed. This means that the brain mainly works with signals from itself. A well-known phenomenon in dynamical physical systems where the level of input and output from the system is low is that oscillation makes spontaneous resonance patterns to occur. Hence, dreams may be the simple consequence of neural oscillation.
据来自维基百科的解释，梦是在睡眠中思想的继承，图像，声音或情绪的心灵经验。到目前梦的内容和目的还没完全被理解，但他们一直在都是历史上感兴趣的话题。研究梦的科学也称为 ONEIROLOGY。我们的眼睛在睡眠期间都是被关闭着，从而使大脑在一定程度上成为与外界隔绝。此外，除了从嗅觉感官（所有信号）必须通过丘脑前到达大脑皮质，丘脑和睡眠期间的活动受到抑制。这意味着大脑本身主要由信号支配。众所周知梦是一个物理系统中的动态现象，输入和输出从系统水平低，是自发振荡使格局发生共振。因此，梦可能是简单的神经振荡的结果。

Well, after the long explanation. What I dreamed exactly? Can’t really recall the details of the dream, I dreamed of pythons. 2 pythons, consider huge one. 1 of the pythons is hunting me. From scientific view, dream is a reflection of our life. However, Chinese believes that dream is a sign. This is why, dream interpretation very popular in Chinese society. Concerning to this, I’ve done some searching from website.
那么，看了那么多的解释。我的梦想到底是什么？我不能真正记得梦的细节，我梦见蟒蛇。梦到两条蟒蛇，蛮巨大的。其中一条蟒蛇在追我。从科学的观点，梦是我们生活的反映。然而，中国人认为，梦是一个迹象。这就是为什么解梦在华人社会很盛行。关于这一点，我做了一些网站的搜索。

Based on the explanation of python from www.dreammoods.com, to see a python in your dream represents danger, sin, and overt sexuality. Alternatively, it may symbolize your determination. To see a python suffocate and kill its prey, suggests that you are feeling emotionally stressed and anxious.
从www.dreammoods.com得到的解释，梦到蟒蛇代表危险，罪恶，公开性行为。或者，它可能象征着你的决心。看到蟒蛇窒息和杀死猎物，可能表示目前的你感到压力和焦虑情绪。

Dream is mystery and it doesn’t have a full satisfactory explanation up to now. It is a signal from our brain, it could be a sign, or it could be something that might be happened in future. As others, I believe that dream is a kind of signal that our brain is alerting to us indirectly. Do you?
梦是神秘的，到目前它并没有完全满意的解释。这是从我们的大脑信号，它可能是一个信号，也可能是一些可能未来会发生的事情。正如其他人，我相信梦是我们的大脑间接地跟我们一种沟通的一种方式。你呢？

张智霖+胡杏儿@一刀了断MV

2010-05-01T04:23:00.000-07:00

张智霖+胡杏儿- 一刀了断
作曲：邓智伟
填词：陈诗慧

张：嘴边的烟蒂苦中带酸手腕竟可以忍心割损
胡：人相恋人失恋何以没法抛开持续恩怨
张：怎么要心软合：花一分钟世界改变
胡：愿望树也心酸张：哪里会有永远眷恋
胡：人毕竟难规劝情绪被记忆扰乱
合：难受过跳火圈

胡：一刀了断别要再见别再记起最深刻画面弃掉照片
张：就算中箭亦要记得成熟地表演
合：一刀了断划上界线甚至要把最窝心缠绵
胡：决断刺穿
张：别要再种下缺氧伏线
胡：狠心删走这一些昨天

张：缺口看得透合：错爱也会化作乌有
胡：静静地喝杯酒张：哪里会有爱到永久
胡：来接受难拥有唯有败诉过之后
合：忘掉最痛伤口

胡：一刀了断别要再见别再记起最深刻画面弃掉照片
张：就算中箭亦要记得成熟地表演
合：一刀了断划上界线甚至要把最窝心缠绵
胡：决断刺穿
张：别要再种下缺氧伏线热情都走得很远

胡：别再见若要撇脱就要去把最深刻从前化造雨点
张：并说再见让那雨水溶掉旧片段
合：一刀了断划上界线就似瓦解既不可还原
胡：邂逅那天
张：就要痛快地切断伏线要记得
胡：闭起双眼把悲哀搁浅

Mobile blogging @ Coffee Bean

2010-04-30T12:35:00.001-07:00

很久没有好好的宠一宠自己了。一个人坐在咖啡座，听着喜欢的音乐，喝着浓浓的咖啡，一面写博客，真的很久没有这种感觉了。就算生活多么的忙碌，也要停一停坐下来感受自己的心境。放慢脚步才能发现一些已经忽略的事情。

我要寻回这种感觉。我要答应自己生活如何忙碌也要学会放慢自己，静静的聆听自己的心声。

Moody Monday

2010-04-26T01:04:00.000-07:00

Monday which I think not much workers love this day. Yeap, it’s a blue Monday. I am either. I fall asleep at 2 a.m. last night. Can u imagine that how tired I am? I can barely open my eyes this morning. I always repeat a question every Monday morning, “how nice if today is Saturday”. How nice…

Ermmm, what exactly I do early in the morning during my weekdays? Ok, here we go…

7:15 a.m - Climb up unwillingly n off my alarm… follow by… sleep back…

7:30 a.m - Arggghh, really have to get up otherwise I’ll be late. Wash my face n get my teeth brushed n follow by taking a hot shower. Dress up myself with a shirt n pant which is nicely ironed. Apply perfume, set my hair, n have clean-shaven. After all these r nicely done, always pop up a question to the mirror, “hmmm, am I looking well today?”

8:00 a.m - Step out from my home perfectly n travel to my company by train.

9:15 a.m - (Hard time) working…working…working…

6:15 p.m - Yea, finally can knock off from my office but because I love my job n my office so much, part of the reason is I am a hard working employee, therefore, I seldom knock off punctually.

7:00 p.m - Alright, make a move. Have a light dinner alone, or with frenz.

8:30 p.m - Time to gym (if manage to off frm dinner appointment or else forget it).

11:00 p.m - Heading to my bed now. Good night…zZzZz~.

1 day gone...wt...f

Achievement

2010-04-22T09:25:00.001-07:00

To whom that always deserve my respect,

Thank you for raising me up. You gave me wing, you set me a strong mindset. Truly appreciated for what you have done for me. Learned lot of things from you and always like to share my opinion with you.

I promise i will have greater achievement than you and you will see that day is coming.

Resort World Sentosa

2010-04-20T04:08:00.001-07:00

A car that worth SGD850,000.00 displays at the main entrance.

3 units to be winning away. Can u be one of them?

Interior of RWS. Limited space with beautiful design.

White Dog Café

2010-04-19T04:46:00.000-07:00

Style: Western
Location: 1 Harbourfront Walk #02-131/132 VivoCity

Went there with my friend Elison Jone last Saturday night. Greeted by a whole bunch of very eager and friendly wait help with 'Hello !, Welcome!'

Had the combo for 2 pax (Pricing: S$39.90 before GST). Combo served with 2 little bowls of macaroni and a plate filled with steak and chops. Generous portion and all the meal tasted fairly good. Just nice for two men like us. Restaurant has a seaview facing Sentosa, which makes it ideal for a romantic dinner with your love ones (the only pity is the one sitting in front of me is a guy). The seats are comfortable enough to have a sit-down dinner for several hours.

Had a great moment and definately will be there for second time. A great place that recommended for dinner.

目标

2010-04-18T06:37:00.001-07:00

Don't know how far is the distance but every step I forward, I feel that I am one step closer.

Hope that I can always be there for you…

2010-04-15T20:56:00.000-07:00

Can’t sleep well again last night, get up in the middle of the night to buy myself a cup of hot milk, purely hope that it helps me to sleep better and keep me away from the nightmare. Never walk alone during middle of the night. Never realize that the highway without a car could be so wide. Night is cold, street is extremely quiet.

Walk into 7/11, grab a bottle of milk from the fridge and heat it up in the microwave. Milk is finished, mind remains clear. Sitting in a playground, mind starts thinking of you.

Thought of our first met, thought of our love and thought of the break. Don’t want to see you suffer in the relationship and don’t even know how to express my feeling to you. Entirely wish that this is the best solution for both of us...

思念

2010-04-14T19:20:00.001-07:00

不懂最近的你怎样了？过得好吗？还是很忙？习惯了每晚都会想你一遍才能入梦。习惯睡前都给你一通电话。渴望监睡前听听你的声音。

每当想起你都很想给你打个电话，很想主动跟你聊聊。可是当想起你说不能接电话时我又犹疑了。这几天睡前都会看一遍我们的照片和读你的电邮。虽然痛苦，但只想永远记着这些感觉。。。你呢？

6 Things To Do In Tokyo

2010-04-13T18:59:00.000-07:00

The region of Asia has plenty of unique islands, but one that seems hard to choose from the multitude of things to do in is Japan. Tourists usually start out in Tokyo, the country's bustling capital and its largest metropolitan area. Here you are able to experience six classic Japanese experiences that you simply can't afford to miss out. Here they are for your perusal!

Eat Ramen

The Ramen noodle is found world-wide in various low-quality ultra-inexpensive forms. It's at the core of Japanese cuisine and even if you're not a foodie, no doubt you'll find yourself enjoying a pile of it during you trip. Each prefecture has its own style of Ramen. For Tokyo ramen, try Menya Mushai near Shinjuku (long queues at lunch!).

See the Snowy Peak of Mount Fuji

Mount Fuji's near picture-postcard peak is one of the most beautiful sights mother nature has given Japan. It's not far from Tokyo so you can easily wander out for a glimpse - although keep in mind that, like any tall mountain, the view can often be obscured by clouds. You'll see it on the bullet train from Tokyo to Osaka, but if you're feeling particularly brave many visitors opt to go and climb the mountain (particularly in July/August).

Visit a Love Hotel

There's no need to explain what goes on behind closed doors at a Japanese love hotel, but just seeing one is an experience in itself. The neon, garish signs are hard to miss, and inside the cheap and tawdry furnishings look out of place anywhere apart from here and maybe Las Vegas. Many Japanese families have little privacy in their own homes, so this type of ‘getaway' isn't as seedy nor as uncommon as you might think. The Tokyo Journal has printed a Top Ten List of Love Hotels.

Soak in an Onsen

An Onsen (or rotenburo) is essentially a hot spring spa; Japan's covered in them, and they are the perfect place to relax and let the mineral waters rejuvenate you. An important point to mention is that an onsens are thermal hot springs, whereas a sento is a public bathhouse where the water is heated. Either is a good experience, but many say there are medical benefits from using the spring waters and plus some of the locations are simply spectacular. There are more sentos than onsens in Tokyo, but this flyertalk post has an extensive list of onsen - likely there will be one near your accommodation.

Enjoy the View from the Park Hyatt in Tokyo

I'm sure there are more film backdrops that you can find elsewhere in Japan, but this one strikes me as a more poignant one - it is where much of the melodrama unfolds in the Hollywood hit Lost in Translation. One thing that isn't lost is the price - be prepared to pay for this experience, as even a cocktail or snack will pinch your wallet pretty hard. But it's worth it, especially to come around sunset and watch the red sky fade into a twinkling urban landscape.

Go Shopping

Tokyo, like many other Asian capitals, is home to shopping mayhem. You can find plenty of high-end electronics and every gadget you could ever possibly want (and many more that you might never want). You can also pick up baskets full of cheesy, quirky, immature but fun gifts - top souvenir choices for me are Kokeshi dolls and stickers, of course. Don't forget your silk goods, woodblock prints, and high street fashion. Two good areas for window shopping are Shibuya and Shinjuku.

If You Go

When you go to Japan, you'll no doubt be expecting a cultural shock, depending on where you're from. So why not brush up on this lengthy (and sometimes hysterical) list of Japanese manners and etiquette before you go?

Let go… finally…

2010-04-12T03:52:00.000-07:00

Decided to quit doesn’t mean I not loving you anymore but I love you above everything. I wish I can grab your hand forever, go to everywhere we like. Share with you my joy and sorrow. Sounds simple, but both of us know this is not possible without sacrificing…

Feel like reside at a foreign city, walking alone at a silent street.

Time is passing, pictures were rewinding.

It’s just another gloomy day; it’s my least favorite holiday.

Heart can’t be any worsen but I’ll be alright.

Hungarian Suicide Song

2008-03-10T09:52:00.000-07:00

Gloomy Sunday

"Gloomy Sunday" (from Hungarian "Szomorú Vasárnap", IPA: ['somoruː 'vɒʃarnɒp]) is a song written by the Hungarian self-taught pianist and composer Rezső Seress in 1933. According to urban legend, it inspired hundreds of suicides. When the song was first marketed in the United States, it became known as the "Hungarian suicide song". There is no systematic substantiation for such claims, as it is not documented where any such allegations appear in press coverage or other publications of the time.

Numerous versions of the song have been recorded and released. Michael Brooks wrote in the program notes for the 10-CD set, "Lady Day" – the Complete Billie Holiday on Columbia, 1933–1944:

"Gloomy Sunday reached America in 1936 and, thanks to a brilliant publicity campaign, became known as The Hungarian Suicide Song. Supposedly after hearing it, distraught lovers were hypnotized into heading straight out of the nearest open window, in much the same fashion as investors after October 1929; both stories are largely urban myths."

背景

　　在七十年前，亦即是1933年，一位名叫Rezso Seress (1899—1968)的匈牙利作曲家一天與其未婚妻因意見不合而分手。在兩星期後的一天，天下著滂沱大雨，失落Seress望著雨點，嘆息了一句：「What a Gloomy Sunday! （真是一個絕望的星期天！）」，靈感卻突然如泉水湧現，三十分鐘後，他寫下了一首在音樂史上最淒美壯美的歌曲——《Gloomy Sunday》（憂鬱的星期天）。

　　接著的一個月，Seress 為這首曲四出尋找出版商，卻被多番拒絕，其中一位出版商人說：「並不因為這是一首憂傷的歌曲，而是這曲所流露出來的那種可懾人心魄的絕望神緒，這對任何聽眾都沒有好處。」但在幾個星期後，他總於說服到一間發行商去發行此曲了。

　　可是，之後兩三年所發生的事卻證明了當時那位出版商人所說的話不無道理。

首個悲劇的舞台——匈牙利布違佩斯

　　Joseph Keller 是布達佩斯的一名制鞋匠，在1936年2月，他在自己的寓所自殺了。當地警方調查此案時，發現Joseph 所留下的遺書中有一段《Gloomy Sunday》的歌詞，《Gloomy Sunday》一曲在這個時候第一次顯示了它的魔力。

　　在《Gloomy Sunday》發行的那一年正值於第二次世界大戰其間。當時匈牙利的自殺率是全世界之首，那個時候，自殺並不是一件太罕見的事。可是當《Gloomy Sunday》發行後，很多的自殺案都跟這首曲扯上了關係。當地，有兩名自殺者在聽一隊吉普塞的樂隊演奏《Gloomy Sunday》時，因抵受不了它的刺激，當場吞槍自殺。又據當時傳媒的報導，有兩名紳士在夜總會聽樂隊演奏《Gloomy Sunday》，可是此曲令他們頭痛不已，他們在離開夜總會時，竟拿出手槍，向著自己的腦袋開了槍。

離奇的自殺案
　　由於《Gloomy Sunday》的影響是如此的震撼，它流傳的速度極之迅速。就在同一年（1936年），它便由匈牙利流傳遍及歐洲和英美一帶，而且十分流行，在那時開始，有關《Gloomy Sunday》的自殺案便開始接二連三地在那一帶發生。
　　在德國的首都柏林，一名年輕的售貨員在抄寫《Gloomy Sunday》的歌譜後竟上吊自盡，當時那名售貨員生活上是沒有任何困難的。在羅馬，一名正騎著自行車派報的報童在街上聽到一個乞丐在哼著《Gloomy Sunday》的調子，他竟立即停下車，把自己身上的所有金錢都給了那乞丐，並隨即走到附近的一條河邊投河自盡。
　　在比利時，有一名匈牙利青年在酒吧邊喝酒邊聽著一隊樂隊演奏著的管弦樂，而當該隊樂隊演奏完《Gloomy Sunday》一曲後，他便因抵受不著該曲的刺激，忽然聲撕力竭地喊著，之後取出自己的手槍自殺身忙。當地警方在調查此案時，一名有參與調查的女警希望在《Gloomy Sunday》一曲中得到一點線索，可惜，該名女警亦慘被《Gloomy Sunday》一曲了結了生命。
　　此外，在當時的自殺勝地的多瑙河，有相當多的人投河自盡時，手中緊持著《Gloomy Sunday》的歌詞或曲譜，其中年紀最小的，只是一名14歲的小女孩。不過，《Gloomy Sunday》的影響力可說是無年齡的限制，一年過八十的老人在自己的家中哼唱著《Gloomy Sunday》，可是她卻越哼越傷心，最後哭著的從七樓跳下，自殺身忙。
　　在1940年，是《Gloomy Sunday》流入美國不久的時間，但已經被灌錄成唱片了，那首是由當時著名的爵士樂手Paul Robeson所演繹的英文版本。因此，《Gloomy Sunday》在美國的流行程度更勝於很多歐洲的國家。而因此，在當地與《Gloomy Sunday》有關的自殺案亦為數不少。
　　在紐約，有一位漂亮的女打字員，平日性情活潑開朗。一天，她在好奇心的驅使下，她借了一張《Gloomy Sunday》的唱片回家聽。翌日，人們發現她的住所發生煤氣泄漏，而該名打字員就因為中煤氣毒而弊命了，在她的遺書中寫著：「我無法忍受這首的旋律，我現在只好告別人世了。《Gloomy Sunday》就是我的葬歌了。」
　　而在首都華盛頓，在一個沙龍聚會，有一位剛成名的鋼琴家應邀出席並為聚會的來賓彈奏鋼琴樂曲。在出席中一位來賓突然收到她母親在車禍中死亡的消息，於是她便請那位鋼琴家演奏一曲《Gloomy Sunday》以哀悼她的母親。鋼琴家知道此曲之前所引起的眾多自殺案件，本來並不願意彈奏，可是在賓客的多番請求下，終於答應了。他帶點不快地開始彈奏《Gloomy Sunday》，就在演奏完後，他因為哀傷過度而心臟病發，最後不治死亡。?
　　在發生了如此之多的離奇自殺案後，在一天《紐約時報》的頭條中竟出現了一條令人震驚的標題：「過百匈牙利人在《Gloomy Sunday》的影響下自殺」，如此的新聞一出，立即引起了各方的討論。在歐美等地，有不少精神學家、心理學家，甚至靈學家探討《Gloomy Sunday》一曲的影響，但亦無法對它作出完滿的解釋，亦不能制止自殺的案件繼續發生。
　　Seress 眼見《Gloomy Sunday》如此知名，於是便向前度女友提出復合的要求，可惜，悲劇便發生了，這位女孩收到他的請求後的第二日便服毒自殺了，人們發現在她的屍體旁有一張上面寫著「Gloomy Sunday」二字的卡紙，她的死亦明顯地與《Gloomy Sunday》有關。

惟一的解決方法——禁播
　　終於，英國的BBC電台決定禁播《Gloomy Sunday》，美國和歐洲的其他國家如法國、西班牙等亦隨即仿效英國。其後多國的電台更召開了一個特別的會議，決議是歐美各國聯會抵制《Gloomy Sunday》，並將原版銷毀了。但當時，作者Seress 並沒有對決議提出反對，甚至沒有表示任何不滿。
　　在歐美所發生的自殺案果然明顯減少了，幾個月後，BBC 取消對《Gloomy Sunday》的禁播，不過播出的只是它的樂器版本。這個版本很快又被灌錄成唱片。而在1941年8月，這首樂曲由黑人女歌手Billie Holiday重新演繹，這個版本成為了最受歡迎的一個版本，直到現在。

禁播後自至現在
　　可是仍有少數人經不起它的考驗而自尋短見，在紐約，有一名婦女在她的住所內服用了過量的巴比妥酸鹽（一種安眠鎮靜劑）而身忙，她死前用唱機重複地播放著《Gloomy Sunday》，直至死後，一名警員才被這重複的音樂聲引來。雖然這件自殺案不能肯定和《Gloomy Sunday》有關，不過警方亦不排除死者是因為聽了這首音樂後情緒低落而自殺的。
　　有關《Gloomy Sunday》的自殺案越來少見。直到1968年，作者Rezso Seress因感到再不能創作出像《Gloomy Sunday》般優秀的樂曲而感到絕望。此時，他選擇了結束自己的生命——跳樓自殺，當時他是六十九歲。他臨死前後悔地說：「我真沒想到這首樂曲會令到如此多人自殺，讓我的靈魂到令一個世界去接受上帝的懲罰吧！」。他因為《Gloomy Sunday》而世界聞名，但亦因為它而斷送了生命。
　　《Gloomy Sunday》一曲在Billie Holiday重灌後流行全世界，在最近的二三十年間，翻唱過此曲的歌手和演奏過此曲的樂隊不計其數，更有作家以此曲為題創作小說。在一些爵士音樂的節目中，仍不時可見到它的出現。

Rezsô Seress
Rezsô Seress 為一名匈牙利的猶太裔男子，於1899年出生。Seress身材矮小，但為人有幽默感。他的一生最遺憾的是沒有受過良好的音樂教育，而亦因此鋼琴他並不彈得很好。他一生大多時間都是住在匈牙利布達佩斯一間叫做Kispipa (Little pipe) 的酒店中，為那裡的客人彈奏鋼琴。不過因為他是猶太人的關係，在第二次世界大戰期間，他亦曾被人抓了去集中營中住過一陣子。 Seress 過著一種矛盾而成功的生活。他雖然不能把鋼琴彈好，但他卻能以彈奏鋼琴來謀生；他一生雖然極為貧窮，卻能使當時一名漂亮的軍官夫人(Helen)願意離開她富有的丈夫而下嫁給他，而且Helen 其實是基督徒，她與一名猶太人通婚，當時是十分哄動的。Seress曾經創作過不少在匈牙利十分流行的民歌，可能歌曲內容不能普及國際，所以沒有外國人欣賞過。直至他完成了《Gloomy Sunday》，這首曲的出現改變了Seress的一生。《Gloomy Sunday》一曲曾經令他的女友自殺，但亦使他揚名世界。自《Gloomy Sunday》一曲成名後，曾探訪過他的名人多不勝數，Perharps Otto Klemperer 是四十年代的一名指揮家，他說Seress並不是一名音樂家，他只是一名天才。他的說話有著他的道理，Seress並沒有接受過良好的音樂教育，但卻能創造出如此優秀的樂曲，說他是天才也不為過；但亦因為他沒有好的音樂根底，所以不能說他是一名音樂家。其他探訪過Seress 的還有美國首位爵士歌手Louis Armstrong、有天才樂手之稱的 Ray Charles、著名美藉影星Spencer Tracy等等世界知名的人物。
直到1968年，Seress因感到再不能創作出像《Gloomy Sunday》般優秀的樂曲而感到絕望，決定跳樓自殺，當時他是六十九歲。《Gloomy Sunday》一曲可說直接影響著他的一生。